How will I know my love?

How will I know my darlin'?
Oh, Mister Moon, up above-
How will I know my love?

How do I know when I'm doing something that will end up as a good thing for me?
Easy.
It scares me sick when I think ahead to it.

Driving? So scared I had to go to therapy AND have a nervous breakdown on an attic ladder to finally get there.
:retch:

So.
Now I'm seriously considering the Civil Service Exam and I am shaking and on the verge of more :retch: and have already cried... and THAT'S just reading the How to find a testing center near you part of the game. :retch:

On the other fronts of my weird-called life... Finished the two skeins of "Scarf yarn" plus what was leftover from The Beret... and am still six inches shy of the goal.
Flag on the play. Fourth down and inches. Gotta get me some of that Lion Brand I crave, baby.

CSI. Love it. Watch it. Read Sobell's recaps. (And for the love of Rampling, read the Casa series.)
But I get a headache trying to parse things out. Another :retch: inducing moment was while I was trying to figure out what "deafferented" meant. You try it. See how fun it is to feel absolutely stupid. I know what afferent means.
GOD, I just feel so stupid. I'm a vocabulary type person and I can't get my mojo working with this stupid word!!!!
I'm NOT a 'phobe.
I love science and math. Just not enough to get past the "casual fan" stage of the loving. And it actually makes my brain hurt when I can't wrap it around something.

It's been a day of :retch:, kids.
Let's hope I can calm the nausea and get some sleep.

Oh, wait. Good thing- Deep Impact launched well and got past some tech-fry to swing into place. See you in July when my name will go :KERBOOM: into a Comet! Whoo-hoo!

CROAK.